Been away a bit

(written May 15, 2014)
I've been away a bit longer than expected and I'm sorry. My husband and I have been trying for another baby for quite awhile now. Only three pregnancies have went long enough to bring us the four wonderful kids we have now. I have miscarried seven times. We both feel like another baby needs to come to our family. I would love to adopt, but it don't feel right just yet so we have still been trying again.
On the 6th on May, I got a very slight but still positive test. On the 7th the Dr. wanted to do HCG blood word and see the numbers. So the first results was 25. (That is very low, they wanted at least 150) So it was very hard for me because if the numbers were so low, I just assumed that I must be miscarrying again. I still needed to go in on the 9th, because its 48 hours later to see another set of numbers) The hope is that the numbers at least double, but again they were still looking for over 150. My result was higher, 86, so good but still not high enough and so they asked for another test to be done in 48 hour.  It was a hard few days waiting for the time to get the blood work, and then because it was Sunday, I had to wait till the doctors office opened on Monday to get the results. They called and said that everything was good actually great. My number was 412. Wow what a shock to me it was, but then I started to worry. Why were my numbers not doubling like they should? Why were they tripling, and then over five timesing themselves. Could this mean multiples? Does it mean there are problems? So still worried but nothing can be done till an ultrasound, which is scheduled for the 30th.
I know whatever is suppose to happen will happen, and I am not worried about whatever is going to happen. I am looking forward to being pregnant again to get the baby we both feel so desperately needs to come to our family here. I am NOT looking forward to a pregnancy while raising four kids and my husband takes 15 credits (Masters programs usually only 9 credits is full time) My pregnancies usually don't go great and by the end I'm either on pure bed rest, hospitalized, and sometimes both.
This pregnancy so far is going really well other than crazy numbers at first. I have no symptoms, so other that the pee test and blood work I really don't even feel that I am pregnant.
This is why I have been away for awhile though, raising the kids and having Ian gone have been a little much, so I haven't made the time to keep you all up to date.
There you have it, I'm pregnant. I hope this one 'sticks'. I'll try to come back more ofter. I'll defiantly let you know what happens on the 30th though. Until then hope all is going well in your lives.